Saturday, October 6, 2007

We are all hypocrites

Nowadays,I seem to getting random thoughts just like that without any effort.It must be due to my voracious reading coupled with my subconscious mind which seems to be running ahead of my conscious self.These thoughts, which I wish to call as self-realization are manifesting by themselves, without any effort by my self.

Suddenly it hit me one day that we all are hypocrites.I'm a hypocrite.
As a child I remember being obsessively passionate about things I set my sights on.I used to cry,fight,hit,plead and do whatever it took to convince or force my parents into getting them to buy stuff or do things I wanted.Whenever my persuasions failed,I used to hate them.I cried,didn't talk to them for days.I tried my best to frustrate them for what I used to call deception done by them.

Look at me now.I deceive myself everyday.I see stuff.I like it and I happily settle to the fact that I can't get it.I see fit people and promise myself to get fit and forget it the next moment.I say to myself every morning, that it'll be a good day and fail miserably every single day.Still after all these I don't carry any grudge against my self and certainly don't treat myself as I treated my parents.Who am I kidding?


I'm expecting less from myself than I expect from others and I don't seem to be too much concerned.I expect more from my parents,friends,employer,God.I have conveniently missed the most important name on the list.Myself.This realization hit me hard.
I desperately need to find it in my self to demand better off me.I can't settle for anything less.A famous saying goes,"You must be the change you want to see in the world".
I hope it's not just wishful thinking.

One needs to get out of their own skins and see themselves as a separate person and judge themselves as one judges others.

9 comments:

Kate said...

I just watched the movie Pay It Forward today and the theme was similar (not exactly as it didnt have the whole negative hypocrite thing... ) The idea that if we all just did something monumental for 3 other people we could change the world. I do think that I am a hypocrite at times. Hopefully not too often! lol

Gledwood said...

I'm a hypocrite and ... not exactly proud of it... but hypocrisy is somehow an inevitable part, don't you think, of living in this world of ours~?

DESPARADO said...

Existential hypocrisy is somewhat required,rather needed in today's land.
But we are the ones to be blamed for this state of affairs.

SpongyBones said...

Damn good reminder for all of us. Thank you.

Wonder Woman said...

Hypocrite seems rather harsh, but suiting... dangit.

Does it not better us, if we can learn from our general negative hypocrite tendencies?

Imagine when you DO decide enough is enough - and begin to excercise regularily - BONUS!

What I see is someone who perhaps has turned around that "hate" directed towards their parents into hatred towards themselves, for simply not being perfect :)

ANNOUNCEMENT: No one expects you to be anything but you - the best you.

meleah said...

I am a total hypocrite. and thats just too damn bad.

(Thank you for the wonderful birthday wish)

Shrink Wrapped Scream said...

Are you kidding me??? I'd top myself if I cared to judge myself as harshly as I do everyone else.

Sheesh.

DESPARADO said...

wonder:welcome.I think it's got nothing to do with self-hate.I wanted to stress the importance of being objective when evaluating ourselves.
Perfectionist?maybe I try hard.

spongy:nice to see you again.thx.

meleah:thx for dropping by.

SWS:Me too.

Steve said...

I consider myself an environmentalist, but to live a modern life I commit countless offenses every hour every day. Being a hypocrite in all areas of life is a reality. Once you accept this reality, you can be at peace with certain aspects of your hypocrisy. Anything that still really bothers you to no end, do your best to change. If you don't, but have the power to do so, then you'll feel like a loser, and will probably act like one too.

"I walk the lonely roads,the only one that I've ever known."