Friday, December 31, 2010


Ya wassup?

1.2010 passed by and I didn't even notice.
2.No "me" time.
3.Late nights @work,business trips,bad food,too much caffeine,reduced immunity,acidity,chronic fatigue........recipe for disaster
4.More work.
5.No time to blog or read a book.
6.More work.
7.Impending burnout.

What else????
Oh yeah I managed to get married in between all these mess.

2011.......the fight goes on........

Saturday, April 24, 2010


Recently I missed certain death by just an hour.
I don't know whether I should thank my angels or not.think I should thank.Live today.Die another day.
I value life a (little bit) more.

Monday, April 19, 2010


Every breath is an effort effort wasted in the hope that the next one is going to be better.
What do you do?
Become cynical?
Turn to spirituality?
Madness perhaps?
What do you do when all you have to do is to keep going on while you are barely able to stand.Crawl...??
What do you do when giving up isn't that scary.
What do you do?
It may be ok with everyone.No one expects you to take another step.You've already come miles.
What do you do?
Is it ok with you?
Will you be able to live with that?
Are you able to face yourself in front of a mirror?
Is the person in the mirror alive?

what to do when going gets hard?
What you do will define you forever as a person.

Lately, going's been tough and giving up and settling into the comforts of my shell appears attractive.

Let's see......who wins.
Round 1 ................goes on.......

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Mortal love

"We have touched for the last time
You are long gone, in love with someone else
I now fear nothing but life itself
And I have learned that living is just a slow way to die
I do not believe in life or in love anymore.
The joy I feel are the joys of emptiness
I hate myself for loving you
The fear I feel night after night has developed into a disease
No-one can see the emptiness in my eyes.
To escape life itself now seems the only solution
With relief i look forward of letting go of the pain
Finally... there is peace in my soul
To lie dead without a concern , without a tear,
You own my heart and life without you is so immensly painful
Just to think of you, talk about you, dream of you makes tears stream down my face.
I cannot imagine happiness without your beautiful smile, your angelic face,
your wonderful body and your good heart.
You are everything , I am nothing.
I want to die
But really... I am already dead"

--Mortal love.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

you know your life sucks......

.........when you have spent two days in vegas and haven't even hit the slot machines(forget the boobies) and actually are blogging about it.

Shit happens.(But you got to make time to actually do it!)
"I walk the lonely roads,the only one that I've ever known."