Saturday, August 13, 2011


These days I'm going through a lot.Any amount of shameless self pity isn't helping either.My self-esteem is at an all-time low and I'm finding it hard to cope with it.I guess every one goes through a phase like this in their lives.Some emerge stronger while others are reduced to a weaker version of their former selves.My state is best described by the Bryan Adams's song: "Right now I feel, like a leaf on a breeze.Who knows where it's going? I find somewhere I never thought I'd be.Going around in circles...".I'm lost.


dcrelief said...

Hello my friend.

Are you hearing the ocean roar? My life is like an ocean. Sometimes it sends me with soft foam toward the shoreline... and it's peaceful there.

Other times it's a rogue wave and I'm wiped out on some nasty rocks...roll over the top and almost drown on the other side.

Life's a beach!

I'm sad that you're feeling lost. But I'm more grateful that you're sharing your feelings. Feelings can be changed. I send good thoughts and hope that very soon something will turn around for you, and make things better.
Love, Dixie

dcrelief said...

Hiya Desp~

I don't know what you're going through or any of that horsey stuff... just know that I like to check on people... not to be noisy.

~And I'm jealous 'cause I can't figure out how to set a new blog with the new parameters!!! I do like the look of your's.

Take it easy,


Hey dc,
At times, feels nice to be nosed over.I appreciate your concern and like it that way.

How are you doing?
I have been through a roller coaster this last half-year.

Basically, I have relocated to a different continent and struggled to find my roots again.This is still an on-going process.But I'm in a much better position now.

I have learnt a lot over these months and I wouldn't have it any other way.

I love my experience so far and it has certainly made me a better person.

There are still some gaping unknowns which I need to figure out.I don't know whether I'm getting battle-hardened or battle-exhausted.
I guess there is only one way to find out.
But all's well for now.

dcrelief said...


Pulled an 'angel card' for you:

"Today, I will focus on what's right about me. I will give myself some of the caring I've extended to the world."


dcrelief said...

Happy New Year, Desp!


same to you.
Although a bit late!

Dixie said...

Happy Father's Day, Despo!!

Dixie said...

Thinking of you.


thx a lot.
Even after a year or more, you are remembering me.
There's a lot which has improved.
Struggle continues..


It's almost two and half years since I wrote my last blog.I can't believe it's been that long.I guess it's time to start the healing.

Dixie@dcrelief said...

Hi D - stopped by to say hello. Hope your life is... better. Hmm? Yes I do hope for you.

Dixie@dcrelief said...

Merry Christmas & Joyous New Year, old friend!!!


hey dixie,
I'm doing good. Have been totally exhausted mentally. Putting words to thoughts is still too much effort.

"I walk the lonely roads,the only one that I've ever known."